WHAT IS LOVE????

Well here i am taking a mini break from my studies , this is my fourth day off, wasnt supposed to be an off day ,was supposed to start studyin today ,but anyone who knows me knows im a big procrastinator!!!!!! So i wake up in the morning thinking im going o start studying today, but does that happen, well...........................NO!!!!!!!!So with my morning cuppa tea i perch myself on my couch ( my second most favourite place after my bean bag) & i start missing my brother( cousin) , i say to myself i miss him so much.......
Meanwhile my sweet , round little labrador comes welcoming me to the morning sunshine (more like heatrays!) with a doormat (dont ask me why) & i tell her ,"i luv u so much......" & whisper sweet nothings into her ears in doggy language. She keeps circlin me ,with the ever-present doormat or any of my clothes she can get a hold of( the more expensive the better), & wagging her tail all over the place .....she finally snuggles near my lap & steps into the world of dreams...i sit thinkin about love....
Love just four letters but such a potent word. It can mean so many dfferent things to so many different people. It can be so many different kinds of love , invoke so many different feelings in the object of your affection................
I know what it feels to love hell yeah i love people , i love my mom,my cousins , my family , my best friend-abhinav,my boyfriend-boney(this is not in order of preference , just in terms of the time duration we've known each other) & my dog!!!!!!
I love a lot of people & in so many different ways . How do you love different people in different ways ?????? How is it that theres always room to love one more???? How is it that though love causes us pain, we never cease to love?? Can a parent love one chile more than the other??? How do we know when we are in love?? Are we ever gonna know the answer to all these questions? Am i gonna know why i love the people i love-so much??? Is this love gonna last forever??-well i know the answer to that one-i'll love them from even beyond the grave!
Since we are talking about love so much, i'd like to take a moment & thank the people i love & tell them why i love them so much. So here goes well it all goes without saying for family...& friends , but three people without whom i wouldn't know about love so much are my mom-for obvious reasons, my bestfriend-abhinav & my boyfriend-boney(in chrnological order of appearance). Let me say a few things about each one of them here.Boney-Im blessed to have you in my life, you've really come through for me especially in the last few months , you've let me bare my soul with you & you bore your's, we've connected in a way i never thought was possible for me-ever, we've had many first's together, many good & bad times , i love you more each day( i can go on but the rest of the things i wanna say- are for your ears only!).abhinav-we met for a project became bestfriends & have been inseperable since. You have been the most loving , supporting, loyal & funnny guy i could ask for.Im blessed to have you as a best friend.We've seen wach other through thick & thin & your still here & i know you always will be...(the rest you know but i'll tell you in person again!)
Well thats not to say i dont love the rest of my friends, dont get me wrong i love all you guys, but i wanted to take some time & thank these guys especially........i love ya'll to death! Well im still here wondering when any of my questions are gonna be answered if at all they are. So im gonna do what everyone else on this planet has been doing for 1000's of years .....life my live & figure out all these answers on the way........ But if any of you wise guys have any knowledge to impart .............go rite ahead!!!!!!

MERE MUSINGS!!

It’s been a long time since I blogged & today that’s exactly what I’m going to do. So here I am sitting & trying to sort out the melee of thoughts in my head. It amazes me , how many thought can actually fit into this little head of mine, well not just thoughts but mere wonderings, memories, knowledge ,wisdom(id like to think I have some!!).

Isn’t it awesome you can recall something you did 15-20 yrs ago sometimes so vividly, sometimes not so. Its not just sights that get etched on your mind ,even smells, I can remember my grandmas perfume , I can remember how my nephews n nieces smelt when they were babies(well…..dont look at me funny, hey did literally smell sometimes, but mostly they smelt of baby powders & such. Isn’t it amazing how many tiny incidents , phone numbers, birthdays &………. We remember. Well that’s not just it, there’s more even our emotions & the way we react to certain sights , smells is related to our brain. That explains why our faces light up when we expecting to see our loved ones , when we suddenly remember something pleasant, how we cringe when we remember something we don’t like ,how we get queasy when we are scared or upset.

Our feelings produce reactions in our body sometimes strong sometimes not. So we ought to be careful about how much we stress about things & how we often let silly things affect us in such a major way. That’s something coming from me my mom would say because I’ve been diagnosed with all sorts of liver & intestine enlargements strangely enough because of stress. My doctors ask me why someone who’s just all of 20 is so affected by stress, & they tell me to not get stressed, but now its so chronic that anything minute can trigger a reaction in my tummy , well its slowly getting a little better , thank god because I’m tired of all that bland food , all the million restrictions on my diet & my workout actually working out was completely banned for me!!!!!!! Bohoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

So take it from someone who’s had two endoscopy’s & quite a few tests run on herself, falling sick sucks big time!!!! So take care of your body, mind & soul! I started writing this blog just wondering bout the mind & now I here I go giving you guys I big sermon , which is the next thing I want to come to there are so many things running through our brain at the same time that its so easy to loose track & get distracted , specially if we are studying isn’t it?

I personally used to (cos now i have eyes only for boney, the love of my life!!)find every “ TOM DICK & HARRY” so attractive during my exams that I inadvertently get attracted to someone strangely enough it lasts from the 1st day of my exams to the last!!! I kind of find that useful actually while studying when I take breaks, I think bout “ how cute that guy was”. I will know say what I have been told a million times before “ your mind is a part of your body & not the other way around so learn to exercise control: on meandering thoughts, anger, frustrations…..”. I think that’s easier said then done, don’t you agree?

Also as I’m wondering , I think about how our brain works when we fall in love or does it even work at all ?? I’ve read contrary opinions on that one, which I will shed some light on when I have some time & energy ( which will probably be tom, hate to leave things incomplete…but I must leave now).How does love & our brain relate?? Why do we do the crazy things , that we do when we are in love? Food for thought…….

Well now my soft bed with all my “ blankies” beckons me with promises of neverland , which is so difficult to turn down ,so there, I have to go. Any thought on the above mentioned subjects are welcome, well thoughts on other things are welcome as well……
So adios people!!!

BUTCHERING THE QUEEN'SLANGUAGE......

Well after repeated requests to my friends of not sending any forwards, unless its really different , thought provoking or better still ,both I keep deleting all these fwds & he next day they are all still there in a new form but still having the same function, that of filling my inbox choc-a-bloc.I’m really not into forwards ,specially those ,where you have to send it to a certain number of people or you’llhave bad luck for so many years ,or you’ll be unlucky in love. Yeah!! Rite!! I fail to understand that how educated people believe in this shit(sorry for the profanity if I upset anyone……)I made another account in hotmail to escape from these forwards & even after telling people so often, “do not send forwards to the new id…” , there it is everytime I open my inbox…….I’m tired of all these dumbass fwds.Well the post below is one of many such forwards. I was intrigued by this because this gives all the countless Indians hope that they aren’t that bad in English,there are people around the world ,who’s English is worse, much worse.
So lets go ahead & look at how the “QUEENS LANGUAGE” has been butchered by people all over the world …….. .. ..


Spotted in a toilet of a London office: TOILET OUT OF ORDER. PLEASE USE FLOOR BELOW


In a London Laundromat: AUTOMATIC WASHING MACHINES: PLEASE REMOVE ALL YOUR CLOTHES WHEN THE LIGHT GOES OUT

In a London department store: BARGAIN BASEMENT UPSTAIRS In an London office: AFTER TEA BREAK STAFF SHOULD EMPTY THE TEAPOT AND STAND UPSIDE DOWN ON THE DRAINING BOARD Outside a London second hand shop:

WE EXCHANGE ANYTHING - BICYCLES, WASHING MACHINES, ETC. WHY NOT BRING YOUR WIFE ALONG AND GET A WONDERFUL BARGAIN?

Notice in London health food shop window: CLOSED DUE TO ILLNESS

Spotted in a safari park: ELEPHANTS PLEASE STAY IN YOUR CAR

Seen during a London conference: FOR ANYONE WHO HAS CHILDREN AND DOESN'T KNOW IT, THERE IS A DAY CARE ON THE FIRST FLOOR

Notice in a field: THE FARMER ALLOWS WALKERS TO CROSS THE FIELD FOR FREE, BUT THE BULL CHARGES Message on a leaflet:

IF YOU CANNOT READ, THIS LEAFLET WILL TELL YOU HOW TO GET LESSONS On a repair shop door: WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING. (PLEASE KNOCK HARD ON THE DOOR THE BELL DOESN'T WORK)

People in other countries sometimes go out of their way to communicate with their English-speaking tourists. Here is a list of signs seen around the world.

At a Budapest zoo: PLEASE DO NOT FEED THE ANIMALS. IF YOU HAVE ANY SUITABLE FOOD, GIVE IT TO THE GUARD ON DUTY.

Doctors office, Rome: SPECIALIST IN WOMEN AND OTHER DISEASES.

Hotel, Acapulco: THE MANAGER HAS PERSONALLY PASSED ALL THE WATER SERVED HERE.

In a Nairobi restaurant: CUSTOMERS WHO FIND OUR WAITRESSES RUDE SHOULD WAIT AND SEE THE MANAGER.

In a City restaurant: OPEN SEVEN DAYS A WEEK, AND WEEKENDS TOO.

U KNOW YOU BELONG TO THIS GENERATION WHEN.........

I was just reading something someone sent me and it did ring a bell .Its a sure shot way to identify if you belong to this generation or not........even if all of it isn't true.....it sure makes some good reading.
So here goes........happy reading.........

• You don't open conversation (on telephone) with a "Hello" but with a "Hi"
• The telephone is never "engaged", it's always "busy".
• You don't "disconnect" a phone, YOU simply "hang-up".
• You never "mess-up" things, you only "screw them up.
• You never have a "residence" tel. no., you have a "home" no.
• You never have a "office" tel. no., you have a "work" no.
• You don't stop at the "signals", but halt at the"lights.
• You don't "accelerate", you "step on the gas".
• There are no "petrol pumps", but "gas stations".
• Your tire never "punctures", you may have a "flat".
• The trains have "coaches" or "boggies' no more but "carriages" or "boxes".
• "I don't know nothing", two negatives don't make a positive here.
• You no longer meet a "wonderful" person, you meet a "cool" guy.
• You don't pull the switch down to light a bulb, rather flick it up.
• You don't "turn on the heat", you "turn on the juice".
• There's no "Business Area" only "business districts", and no "districts" but "counties".
• No one stays "a stone's throw away", might"a few blocks away".
• There's no "Town Side", it's "Down Town".
• In hotel you no longer ask for "bill" and pay by "cheque", rather ask for "check" and pay with (Dollar) "bill's.
• There are no "soft drinks", only "sodas".
• Life's no longer "miserable" it "stinks".
• You don't have a "great" time, you have a "ball".
• You don't "sweat it out", you "work your butt off".
• Never "post" a letter, always "mail" it and "glue" the stamps, don't "stick" them.
• You no longer live in "flats" or "blocks", find an "apartment".
• You don't stand in a "queue", you are in a "line".
• You no longer "like" something, you "appreciate" it.
• "#" is not "hash", it's "pound".
• You are not "deaf", you have "impaired hearing".
• You are not "lunatic", you are just "mentally challenged".
• You are not "disgusting" you are "sick".
• You can't get "surprised" you get "zapped".
• You don't "schedule" a meeting, you "skejule" it.
• You never "joke", you just "kid".
• You never "increase" the pressure, you always "crank" it up.
• You never ask for a pencil "rubber " you ask for an eraser. a rubber is a condom.
• You don't try to find a lift you find an elevator.
• You no more ask for a route but for a "RAUT"
• You don't ask somebody "How are you?", you say "What's up dude?"

Funny and true.......anyone wants to add any???????

"I'VE BEEN TAGGED BY THE NAUGHTY LIL DIVZ!!"

As i have been asked to do something really crazy..............the crazy thing being i gotta write 20 things about myself ,(ill really hae to think long and hard for this one) im gonna go really crazy with colour on this one..........
So y'all ready???????? Here goes.......

• hmm.......im gonna start with myself...i am a crazy ass,back -slappin ,laughing her guts out,really naughty prank playing girl who can also be very lady like (subdued laughter,hands not flailing around...)when really required........
• I have an amazing best friend-abhinav who people who dont know me very well thought i was going around with....till they found out im seing someone .......some still think we have feelings for each other....ya we do ,immense love ,love that only two best friends can share (why cant a male & female be best friends?).I love him so much.........
• One thing im crazily possessive about is ma guitar.......dont like people (guitar illeterates especially) looking ,touching or strumming my guitar....its mine..mine alone.....MY PRESCIOUS!!!!!
• I love my labrador -muffins to bits,she's my baby!!!!!!!!!
• I'm addicted to music, that's my dope.
• I can shop till i drop,but i hate trying on outfits to see if they fit rite,accessories are a major attraction when im shopping!
• I love absoring the wonders of nature ,just dont like getting dirty!
• I do not like being one of the crowd,everything i do and wear must be rare,preferably one of a kind.
• My room is mostly a mess,but when i start cleaning im obsessive about it,like monica (these genes are inherited from my mother),so i pefer to let it be ,cos i can spend two whole days just cleaning.
• I like to cook (once in a way),though i hate cutting vegetables,need someone to do that for me ,onions especially! Also love making my own recepies !
• Im very anaemic,fainted twice this year already.
• I"d love to try some adventure sports sometime , like bungee jumping , paragliding.......
• I wanted to be an astronaut when i was younger, which is what made me like physics , i still go stargazing whenever i can.The closest place to bombay where you can go stargazing & have an amazingly clear sky is naigaon, i once saw 150 shooting stars in a single night.
• I have no siblings and i'd like to think im not spoilt, i get differing opinions on that one though.......
• I love the rains especially if i'm at home tucked under my covers with a glass of hot chocolate & some yummy cookies.
• I keep running my fingers through my hair,i just love doing that.......well, others like doing that too! hehehe I also check my reflection in car windows and any mirror if i happen to be passing by one to see if my hair is in the right place
• I hate my clothes getting creased which is another reason why i like to catch fleeting glimpses of myself.
• I love to make people laugh , i feel blessed if i can brighten up someones day.
• I dont get along with a lot of girls , i make friends with guys very easily , i grew up with guys......... really am one of them.
• Lemme make this one clear i hate manipulaters, hypocrites , men on the roads who'd do anything for a free touch (i beat them up, so steer clear of me if your one of those!) , i think they should be castrated ....2 harsh u think???????

OK now that i got down 2 writing i can think of a few more but lets just leave it at 20 cos that's what was required of me..........feel free to comment on anything........

All for now........signing out now..........the angel of sleep is taking over....But before i go i'd like to say that.......i...zzzzzzzzzzzz..........zzzzzzzzzz.zzzzzzzzz

"MEMORIES ,SWEET MEMORIES"

Hello ppl im back after a really long hiatus!! I'm sorry but i had good reason to be away it was my closest cousins wedding reception.What about the wedding you ask, well that was in poland & i wasn't able to attend it because of a certain institution called "educational institution-college", i had to stay back to assure them that i am alive & present in college & am studyin regularly & therefore can give my boards! whew!! long sentence!
Anyway since i missed the wedding i made sure i made up for it when the lovely newly weds came down to india.My cousin Leslie is my favourite brother,he'e the most amazing "i love you so much , im so protective about you,but im not gonna smother you with my love" type brothers, great isn't he! Well he does more than just being an amazing brother to me ,he's an amazing brother to his two sisters these 3 are ma favourite cousins from my dads side, i love these guys,im very very close to them.He was born & brought up in bombay(im sorry still cant call it mumbai!).He went to london for his M.B.A & he met his wife-to-be "anna-she's a sweetheart".She's polish & she's ohh so cute,so gentle,so soft-spoken,so........ I can go on & on & on.
They met,they fell in love and got married in polland,had a reception there,came down to bombay & had another reception here!
I went and met them as soon as my exams got over we freaked out so much we sat and talked into the nite like old times,my sis-sophie,leslie-anna & me.We had so many things to catch up on.So many secrets to spill, i had some to spill too, and my brother was playing his part to the hilt "who's this boyfriend of your's i wanna meet him' & all the leg pulling that ensued after that.........We spent the whole night catching up.That left us with just 1 more day for the reception.
This is the reason why i have been away for a really long time,i was busy spending time with my cousins & my whole family,getting ready for da reception & all ,it was too much fun!!The last time i was so involved with a wedding was really long ago when i was in da 5th or something for my sisters wedding.Now that im all grown up and all its very different you have to be there with the bride as she has no other family besides us here in india,welcome people, get introduced to people & relatives you havent seen before and in all probability will never see again,who are seeing you for the 2nd time ,the 1st time being when you were really small & then they exclaim you have grown so much........well yeah people grow ,if i dint then it would be wierd rite? lol!!
Well some of them who had seen me 2 days ago couldnt recognise me there is a reason for that ,that is cos i was wearing a saree,so not like me cos they havent seen me in one ever!!They have seen me grow up in jeans & skirts & stuff! But i must say it was nice being all grown up & looking the part (for once)& accepting all da compliments,neglecting all the stares (was wearin a halter blouse....lol).I had no idea my family will be so glad to see me in a saree all grown up & all,i was hugged and kissed and hugged again and kissed some more,given complimets,i felt like a princess.The reception was on the whole really lovely ,i had a ball being all over the place & taking care of things & all that except my cousins had to pull my leg saying im da last one ill be the next one getting married.Yeah true that ,but atleast not for another few years i was like "puhlease , leave me alone".
After the reception was "leslie & anna's" 1st day in church the following sunday.THe whole week after was dedicated to a few more gatherings,drinking ,shopping and some more shopping.Following up on his previously made threat that he wants to meet my boyfriend he wanted my guy to spend a day with them just leslie anna my guy & me -a whole day out,which also gives anna the chance to sight see(well whatever little there is to see),cos all she did since she came was meet people,and shop...It was an amazing day,we shopped some more asking two girls to not shop on a day out is way too much!!!hehehe.........
Poor anna she was so tired n her face had become all red-the heat has really become unbearable these days,if its so bad for us, i donno wat the more thing must have gone through.........
Yesterday we spent our last night together , we sat and watched the wedding dvd and ate and talked some more and today morning we all said our sad goodbye's(leslie & anna are on their way back to london rite now)& we all went our seperate ways ,to our respective houses.I waved my last goodbye(till they come back whis is in all probability next year)I turned around & walked away with nothing but sweet memories to remember them by.............and the pictures we took together....
Im gonna miss them soooooooooooooooo much!!I had so much fun these last few days,its amazing sometimes how much happiness we can pack into a few days.........& memories to last a lifetime...

Hmm....today was a nice day off from my regular (last week) life of going to college and coming back and sitting at home and completing my assignments n journals,some of which are still grossly incomplete!!
So i sit and reminisce about all thats happened over the last few years(not everything but a few major things that have happened and how im different from wat i was when i was 18). And the first few things that come to my mind is my group of friends from juniour college how i miss them!!!!!! MIKU,DIVYA,KRISANN,KRITTIKA.we really had a blast,that was the first time i actually really got along with a bunch of girls. Those gals were fun.......the crazy things we did. Kritts was always saying or doing something really funny!Miku n Divs always liking the same guys!! Krisann was always taking on new things like painting ,sketching (she even sketched on a pair of paints,they looked awesome!!)....n well i was generally goin around playin a lot of pranks n getting into a lot of trouble. All of us together on the last few benches of da classroom forever talking ,laughing,passing notes!! Now things have changed so much each one is in a different college and all of us can never meet up and spend some time together owing to the fact that all of us are now in different countries or states.......so sad!! Well thankfully one of my best friend miku is here with me so i can call on her any hour of the day with all my shit and take all of hers too.After thinking about everything ma gang's done together i went on to think bout how life was after my 12th(thats when we all got seperated).
Thats when i think about my graduation,im still doing it,thankfully this is my 3rd and last year and how life is when your doing your grad studies.Well i first think about why i took physics and the answer is right there cos i love the subject.But things seem a lttle different now cos now its not just about learnin what i love,the only thing all the teachers keep talking about is how we need to be disciplined and giving all these weekly tests,completing our journals,manage to study everyday,ace all our tests.Somehow all his seems really so not me definately not what i bargained for. I know i gotta study and all but they forget its important for us to have a life (which by the way i see slowly vanishing away into thin air).All work and no play makes jack a dull boy,thats so true!!So here i am swinging between tryin to saok up every bit of life and still keep all my deadlines,its one hell of a job let me tell you that,and i fail often ,but im not gonna give up so soon , hoping i get better at it sooner than later!Im so glad its all gonna be over by april next year.
But college is still fun,i still have a good bunch of friends and we manage to make most often even the mundane lecs interesting by chattin,drawing cartoons of the teachers and the usual things one does to keep awake in a lec, and all the hanging out after college......
Then i go on to think aout all the other really major events that happened this year with this city in general and how i am blessed to be where i am safe and sound with all my loved oones around me(well most of them actually),what with all the floods and the torrential rains and all those who got carried away in the floods and lost thier lives,thier homes,and thier loved ones.It was heart wrenching to see people out on the roads after the floods subsided...though everything was almost back to normal pretty soon.
That disaster made me realise how easy we can just about loose everything we love and hold dear in a moment.....
I think about all the changes in my life good or bad and how they have made me the person im today ......I do a little bit of soul searching ...(lots to write here but no time and no energy.......so ill just leave it for some other time)
After im done thinkin bout the changes in my life i think about the changes in the lives of people around me. Divs came down in may and we had loads of fun, almost like old times (almost because kriss n kritts were missing), and we managed to sort out a few problems we had before!! That was really really nice!! Then theres my brothers wedding!!!! yayey!! Now that is a major change. Im so excited.......im all geared up to get into celebration mode!
Well........There's loads more where all that came from , if it wasnt for time constraints i'd sit and write more , but i gotta go ,so thats all for today......catch u guys later.

my first blog...hmmmm....not really its my second!! well hopefully i can keep up with it.so thats then .......im on ma way to hopefully making this an interesting read.wish me luck!